Giddiness!

As predictable and calm as I am, I find myself giddy with excitement. It's a quiet excitement mostly contained inside my head. But last night after eating a yummy turkey sub with hot peppers (which I think Aedan also enjoyed - or maybe that was just gas?) Aedan was moving uncontrollably! You could see body parts bouncing up and down and as he was doing his acrobatics I found myself actually imagining what it's going to be like when he finally arrives!

I know...I've had over 8 months to be imagining this which I have in a casual sort of way. I know that he has to come out eventually and that our casual lifestyle will suddenly be flipped upside down with middle of the night feedings, constant diaper changing and thinking of not only ourselves but now including a little one's needs and wants to the mix. I haven't really freaked about this yet...I'm sure it will happen at some point.

But it was last night and now spilling into today that I really cannot wait until he gets here. I can't wait to see what and who he looks like more. I can't wait to have that baby smell (no matter how good or bad) around me 24 hours a day. I can't wait to be so exhausted and at the same time overwhelmed - feelings I would generally suffer through but because they're put upon me by someone I had a part in creating makes it all worth it. I can't wait to say "my son" or that "I'm Aedan's mommy" or later in life "AEDAN MCLEAN!!!!! YOU ARE BEHAVING JUST LIKE YOUR FATHER SO KNOCK IT OFF!" I can't wait...I can't wait...

I'm thrilled, excited, happy, ecstatic, joyful, overflowing and giddy - even if it's quietly held inside.