No More Rants...

I was brought back to earth by Patrick a few days ago in his oh-so-gentle way of telling me that I've seemed miserable this entire pregnancy. I didn't want nor did I expect to hear that. It really upset me. But sometimes people are able to shed light on our behaviors and attitudes that we aren't able to see through our own rose-colored lens.

P.S. If you ever need someone to do that for you, Pat is your guy!

Anyway, this got me to thinking that when I'm asked how I'm feeling or even if they don't ask I generally focus on my ailments first rather than the really great things I feel. For example, it's great to feel Aedan move around every time I eat bananas and peanut butter. It's not so great to feel the sciatica pain but I've been focusing on the pain. So rather than speaking of negatives I'm only going to talk about the wonderful things I've learned to love.

Here's my list so far:

• The attention. I love attention (just ask Pat!) and my growing belly has given me a bounty of it.


• Wiggles (not the Australian type). Big, giant, body moving wiggles that I now get the pleasure of feeling around the clock.


• Weird bodily functions. I don't have to make up a reason for them...I simply say, "I'm pregnant, what do you expect?"


• Shopping! I can buys lots of really cool stuff for myself and Aedan without one single ounce of guilt. Oh - shoe shopping specifically! My feet are growing therefore I need new shoes!


• Baths! Nightly I can soak myself again without the guilt of feeling like I should be doing something more productive!


• Naps. The baby needs his rest!


• Forgetfullness. I've had an 8 month excuse for forgetting EVERYTHING. It's been blissful. You simply cannot yell at a pregnant woman for forgetting stuff - she's got way more on her mind.
  

The most important aspect of my Pat-induced realization is that I feel like I've been short-changing Aedan which is so not fair. He needs to know how excited his mom and dad are to see his sweet face and that all of the aches and pains I've experienced and subsequently made Pat experience has been well worth it. He needs to know that yes, his mom is crazy and prone to breaks in sanity but above all else, she has lots and lots of love to give her little one.